I bet no one reads this lbog anymore
so i dont' care
i just want to let out my sadness somewhere.
Everytime i get upset
i used to think that i'l live through it i cna make new friends wit the same old me i'm not totally hated
i stil think that there may be ppl who liek me for who i am
bt i can't help but be totaly upset
S told me yesterda all i did was make her feel stupid
and up till todya i can't help but think that she's right
i feel so bad for doing that ot her.
i hate myself
not as if it matters to her
She has her own friends now
who lvoe her and support her
and i'm all alone.
i sitll do have some friends.
but am i goin to stick to those friends foreveR?
More and more ppl are loving her
And i'm not changing at all.
i don't know what i'm writing actually
i don't think it makes sense
but wth.
soemtimes i relaly wonder why i'm still alive.

@
5:00 AM
I wish today was saturday
i wish i could spend more time iwth daddy
i wish i could be more hardworking and make my dad proud
i wish i oculd makemy mum proud too
i wish i could turn back time
i wish i could redo everything
i wish i could say sorry for everythin i've done
i wish i could die
i wish i had an awesomez voice everyone liked
i wish i wasn't pampered
i wish for lots of things
but they are all just wishes
none can be granted...
Life sure sucks.

Friday, July 9, 2010 @
10:56 PM