I really wanted to keep all sorrows to myself.
and be a happy person and lvoe everyone.
demo..
yappari...
muri desu ne~
I am going to post it here. cos i'm sur eno one reads. and even if they do. they probably won't care XD
its all my fault.
because i'm stupid and stubborn.
yeah she tried so many times.
but i din respond did i.
or maybe i did. i don't kow anymore.
Life keeping secrets to urself is very painful.
u start thinkina bout so many things..
For me..
I noticed how lonely i was.
But yet i noticed how i had ppl who relaly loved me like yuuri wan and michi...
I noticed how bad a friend i was.
The worst infact.
that kinda explains why i'm aloe ne~ XD
I noticed. how much i miss my dad.
today i went for mass.
suddenly i missed him so bad.
i really wanted ot cry.
its liek the only thig that connects me and him now
are just the things he gave me. and my phone.
I noticed how he never calls me ever.
Everytime it has been me calling him .
I want back my life with my dad. in the old house.
walking the dogs together.
i'd even give up dubbing jsut to be with my dad.
i want my dad back.
he's the worst man in my life.
but i want him back.
i'm scared i'll forget him.
i don't wnat to.
everyday i stare at my phone
hoping he'd call me.
i want to do well in my exams
because i hope that someone will tellhim i did well
i want him to evne just send me an sms saying "gratz" or something.
anything.
anythin to show he hasn't forgotten me.
i miss my dad.
i seem desperate ne~
holding on to everything he has.
From the credit card thats no longer useful.
to the toy he gave me last time.
...
I also noticed.
how scared i am.
to lose my mum.
she keeps going she has cancer and all
may not have lon to live and blahblhablah
it scares me so much.
cos i realised.
in the end.
though i get pissed so much.
she is the only one i can count on foreva.
to listne to my problems.
she's probably the only one who would understand the pain
of losing mydad.
i'm sure she misses my dad too maybe more.
i don't wnat ot lose her.
I dont' want to think anymore.
i want ppl to distrat me.
sotp me from thinking.
i relaly don't want ot htink anymore.
@
5:03 AM
Me wanna do so many things~!
lets list the most impt ones ~! :D
1. Buy a new swimsuit~!
i'm still fat but still XD me wnat one :) me will go gym yes ye yes~!
I din go today... but i'll go tmr for sure~!!!!!!
2. NEW nail Polish~!
of all colors :)
these two are the most impt~! :D oh oh oh ad i wana lose weight. i wana be SKINNY~!!!!
XD
thats all for now :)
ココ♥
Wednesday, June 9, 2010 @
8:58 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN~!♥
you are now 15 and we are now the same age for the next six months~! :)
I'll never forget ALLLL the fun stuff we did together~!
from the grabbing of the toe to the offing of the psp while we were so high to the heart to heart talks when we sleepover~!
Thanks for being mua darling friend i love u so much♥
lets be Friends FOREVA~!
DAISUKI DAYO~!!!!!
ココ♥
@
2:10 AM
maa...
Being happy is good..
but..
Is being happy with no friends good?~
^-^
i wonder~ XD
Tuesday, June 8, 2010 @
4:31 AM
In the end..
i wished i agreed with mummy
to migrate to aussie in primary 6.
i was stupid then.
To think that my friends owuld always be there for me ^-^
to never forget me ^-^
Baka da ne~ watashi wa~
i could have been happier then~
maaa...
thats the past ne ^-^
not as if i can change it :)~
ah wells~
ココ♥
@
2:31 AM
Something interesting~
Somehow~
My yuuki 100% Dub suddely increased to 331 views o.O~
I would be relaly happy if it were real XD~ ♥
ココ♥
@
12:16 AM
uwa i figured out the answer for my own question~!
If i just cry it out at night~
Ad forget it the next morning~
i can survive~! ^_^
i was wathcing atashinchi no danshi again~
and i'm in total love with the guys~! <3~
FIRST~! せと こうじ~ (Seto koji) !!! I love him the most in this drama :)~
NEXT~! むかい おさむMukai Osamu ~!!!! he's so darn cooL <3~
OMG NEXT やまもと ゆうすけ Yamamoto yusuke~!
The last of my loves in atashinchi no Danshi~! :) 要潤 Kaname Jun~!
ALLL are so ute and pretty and hot :)
Seto Koji and musai osamu is the best though <3
:D~
ココ♥
Monday, June 7, 2010 @
7:52 AM
I just realised too..
If i'm happy everywhere..
where will i pour my sadness? O.o~
^-^
ココ♥
@
7:41 AM
I only just noticed this sorry to say
but omg.
If i relaly hide my feelings and pretend to be happy.
which i am great at.
then like omg.
no one notices :)
i don't know whether i'm happy or sad~
ah wells~
im probaby hiding my feelings here too now O.o i wonder~
XD~ not as if anyone cares deshou? XD~! ^-^
ココ♥
@
2:42 AM
this was taken yesterday but i fogot to upload it~
I LOVE MY PINKY NAIL~!
it grew sonicely and is a wonderufl shape so i coudln't resist and painted it~
This is when i painte donlt the firs tlaayer is looks much more awesomez now :)
i lvoe painting nails :) ~
ココ♥
@
2:25 AM
I have decided~!
to be a happy person :)
cos i realised :)
that if i hide my feelings :)
NO ONE will know when i'm upset :) ~
^-^~
YAY~!
ココ♥
Sunday, June 6, 2010 @
7:41 AM
Nakayama is sooo mine...
if anyone dares to steal him
i'll hate u for life. :)
@
7:35 AM
if you do't treat me like a friend to me.
don't expet me to be a friend to you still.
Shoutout to wan (dono if she'll ever read but ah well)
私わあなたのことがだいすき～！
ＳＨＯＵＴＯＵＴ ＴＯ うみか～
あなたも大好き～！ ＾－＾～
@
7:12 AM
あなたは
やっぱり私の友達じゃない。。。
あなたわ。。。
ほんとに大好きですけど。。。。
あなたは私を気にしないように私は感じる。。
あなたわ
YAMあるだから。。。
あなたは私を忘れてしまったように見える
ほんとにくやしいです。。。
もうわからない。。。
たすけて。。。
誰も。。。
たすけて（T.T）
ココ♥
Saturday, June 5, 2010 @
9:01 AM
うみかちゃん～！
ほんとにほんとにありがとう～！
あなたはいつもそばにいて
私のばかばかの話きって
ほんとにあありがとう～！
私きょうわ
ないた。。
”一人です”私は感じたですけど。。。
私は家に帰った
あなたとはなして
あなたKATTUNコンサートきいて
うれしいです
大好きですよ～
有名になることができます
わたしたちはがんばりましょう～！
ココ♥
@
8:07 AM
She chose them over me.
i'm not jealous or anything..
its just that
i'm no longer impt to her deshou?
she's so happy wit them.
she doesn't care whether i go or not.
she's like.. how i was?
wakkanai.
she was who i trusted the most
who i always went with everywhere.
but now she has her own friends or "bfs" as she calls them....
and YAM.......
i dont' have anyone.....
Hitori desu.
Why would one wnat ot live if no one thinks that perso is impt.
nande deshou ka.
and because i'm alone..
no one will probably read this.
ココ♥
@
4:06 AM
Omg today was CHOO cool~
I was walking ot church~
and i saw this CHOOOO kawaii PINK CAR~!
I sooooo want one in the future when i can drive :)
Its a nice shade of light pink doesn't stand out THAT much XD hehehe~ ♥
Ah i'm goin to the gym now ♥
JAA~!
ココ♥
Friday, June 4, 2010 @
6:47 PM
Today is the weekend~!
So happy ♥
i've been watching a new drama called love shuffle
its SOOOO good~
I totally Love it :D
I love ai-ai and ochan and Usatan~!~!
These three are great ~
GO Usatan♥Ai-ai
O chan ♥ Kairi
Kikurin♥
Meichan~!♥
But in the end... GO USATAN♥AI-AI~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and KIKURIN~!!!! ♥♥♥
ah wells~
I have to go for tuition~ XD
Will post again later~ If i can~
jaaa~
ココ♥
Thursday, June 3, 2010 @
6:52 AM
YO~!
Today i had a new tutor~!
Gopal~!
I think he's cool but a little scary but ah wells~
for the sake of doing well~!
must gambarimasu until november and then mass dancing and singing :)~!
must be famous~!
がんばります～！
thats all for todays~!
Sowwee for all the short posts :)
i'm not good at posting long long stuff anymore XD
ココ♥
Wednesday, June 2, 2010 @
3:04 AM
Omg seeing yamada crying after the filming of Scrap teacher and Hidarime Tantei eye its so darn touchin~!
i want to act and sing too~!
in JAPN~!
with TAKAKI~! YAMADA~! AND YUMA~~!
I really hope AKB48 come to singapore or osmething :(~
i SOOO want to be famous~
thats why...
がんばります～！
（＾－＾；）
ココ♥
@
2:01 AM
Me was bored so me played with mua hair :D
hHAHAHAHA:D
ugly but heck :D
for me to see only anyways XD~
i wanna be an idoL~ :D:D:D AKB48 come to singapore~!
ココ♥
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